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A message

I took a long 55-mile bike ride today, and stopped a bit for a water break near the end. As I sat on the bench, I noticed an inspirational healing stone that someone had left there. Perhaps I was a bit light-headed from the ride, but I immediately interpreted it as a communication from my son:

That is exactly the sort of thing he would say, and exactly the odd, out-of-context way he would say it.

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